FEAR
Feel, feel the walls come closing in.
If I said I was fine, would you all leave me alone?
Say, go on and say what’s on your mind:
It may not be the best time for me to be on my own.
I’ve been watching from the sidelines thinking
how I can belong to everyone but no one else.
If failure is a feeling and I feel like I’m a failure on my own…
Fear, fear what’s on the other side.
Come up with a million excuses to say goodnight.
Then, I’ll fall off into oblivion and all my friends will have better lives.
But I know that’s not the case,
I’m just telling these things to myself
To make my life a little bit harder
And if I could silence the voices in my head,
I could sleep better.
HOW IT GOES
In a moment everything changed.
I was standing there.
It took all my breath away,
I didn’t know what to say,
so I just let my eyes return to the screen.
A reflection of a face I didn’t recognize
told me not to cry and everything would be fine.
But I’ve hollowed out my heart
to keep my focus sharp.
So I’ll just pass into the morning all the same.
So this how it goes,
I’ll stay numb or be exposed.
Keep it locked up tight and throw away the key.
The attic always leads to trouble anyway.
Give a great big salute, and stand there resolute,
while you keep crumbling within from all the pain.
So this how it goes,
I’ll stay numb or be exposed.
(Ooh) I don’t have the answers that you wanted out of me.
I cannot help you.
(Ooh) I don’t have the answers.
They are not so easily found.
So this how it goes,
I’ll stay numb or be exposed.
In a moment everything changed,
I was standing there…